Friday 22 May 2009

Pride

* Taken from web



No mountains too high, for you to climb
All you have to do is have some climbing faith, oh yeah
No rivers too wide, for you to make it across
All you have to do is believe it when you pray

And then you will see, the morning will come
And everyday will be bright as the sun
All of your fears cast them on me
I just want you to see...

I'll be your cloud up in the sky
I'll be your shoulder when you cry
I'll hear your voices when you call me
I am your angel
And when all hope is gone, I'm here
No matter how far you are, I'm near
It makes no difference who you are
I am your angel
I'm your angel

I saw the teardrops, and I heard you cry
All you need is time, seek me and you shall find
You have everything and you're still lonely
It doesn't have to be this way, let me show you a better day

And then you will see, the morning will come
And all of your days will be bright as the sun
So all of your fears, just cast them on me
How can I make you see...

I'll be your cloud up in the sky
I'll be your shoulder when you cry
I'll hear your voices when you call me
I am your angel
And when all hope is gone, I'm here
No matter how far you are, I'm near
It makes no difference who you are
I am your angel
I'm your angel

And when it's time to face the storm
I'll be right by your side
Grace will keep up safe and warm
And I know we will survive

And when it seems as if your end is drawing near
Don't you dare give up the fight
Just put your trust beyond the sky...

I'll be your cloud up in the sky
I'll be your shoulder when you cry
I'll hear your voices when you call me
I am your angel
And when all hope is gone, I'm here
No matter how far you are, I'm near
It makes no difference who you are
I am your angel
I'm your angel

I'll be your cloud up in the sky
I'll be your shoulder when you cry
I'll hear your voices when you call me
I am your angel
And when all hope is gone, I'm here
No matter how far you are, I'm near
It makes no difference who you are
I am your angel
I'm your angel

~
I'm your angel, Celine Dion and R. Kelly ~



There are different kinds of dehumanization. One of them is when you have to stay angelic. No matter how people treat you, you have to keep your positive thoughts. No matter how suffered you are, you are not allowed to blame another person. No matter how sad you are, you have to keep the sorrow for your self, and stay bright... smile a lot. No matter how tired you are, you have to use whatever energy left in you ... to stay angelic. Until one moment flashes right in front of your eyes, and you realize... you feel lonely.


I believe everyone has their own definition of what is called as 'pride'. But how many people actually know how to guard their pride right? When you let someone takes advantage of you, I would say that you let your pride taken away. When you are not able to say 'no', when you fool your self to keep loyal to something unworthy, you unconsciously break your own pride. And the best moment when pride might be at its lowest price is... when somebody is in love. Let's say, everyone has love, though formed in a different way. I would happily acknowledge, that love is priceless, such that it should be granted to the right person, to the right thing, in the right way, on the right time, in the right moment. Unfortunately, there might be some mistakes we do in which life teaches us,,, forces us to redefine what actually love is.


A couple weeks ago, I happened to chat with my lovely sister, she told me that her almighty boyfriend cheated on her, for all her happy two years relationship. I asked her some questions:

me: Did you cry?
ms: Yes of course. It's so unbelievable that he cheats on me. And it's for these two years. How could I not know that he has another girlfriend?
me: Are you sure that it is girlfriend, not girlfriends? [try to break the ice razz]
Why did you cry anyway, was that because you were sad?
ms: Not sad, but it's just... disappointed. How could I be such a fool to trust him?
me: So you are not sad... That means you are not that into him.
ms: Maybe.
me: Maybe? So what are you going to do next?
ms: I talked to my friends. They said that I might not cry for such kind of man, that I deserved someone better. But they also suggested... maybe I should just mess him up and ask for explanation.
me: Wo wo wo, take it easy my lady... [can such person even be considered "a man"?]. Stay in grace. Don't do anything disrespectful. We all know that what he did is not respectful, but that doesn't mean you have to do the same. Just stay calm, take your time, pretend that nothing happens, and see what he'll do next. And your friends are right, you deserve someone better. Look at you... you have a lot of things to offer. Why would you invest your time and energy on somebody who doesn't respect you?
ms: Yeah, a lot of handsome men out there.
me: Well... just one thing, be careful with someone handsome and someone kind. Now you see how your holy handsome boyfriend might turn to be.


a couple days after...

me: So how was it?
ms: He kept texting me nice words. He was nice and kind, as usual.
me: Hmm... that's interesting. So he doesn't realize that you already know that he cheats on you?
ms: Ya. I saw him dating his another girlfriend. And she is my friend. We know each other very well. How could he do that to us? What if the girl knows that he cheats on her?
me: Hmm... well...
[my mind flew somewhere far far away... to the edge of what is called 'stay angelic'... a breakthrough to what is called 'being cool' ]
There are people who like to play safe. Men might not feel guilty for that, some consider such thing as affair if they are bound to marriage. Before marriage, some men consider that as 'selection'.
ms: But that's not fair.
me: Well... Just don't let yourself do something unfair. Now you know the truth. Isn't it better to know it sooner?
ms: Yeah, right.

Again, my mind flew away.




You have pride when...
you value your self for good
you value your life for real

you love your self as best as you can grant
you respect and honor your self
such that you do not let your self suffered for no reasons
you do not let your self sad because of other's disrespectful behavior
you do not let your self drowning in unworthy things
you let your self shine to its brightest state
you let your self free to enjoy a life you do deserve
that you also gather all the merit in this universe
to respect another person's pride





*A hectic state, after watching 'Angels and Demons' and 'He's just not that into you' movies.

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