Doushite?

I was in trouble
So glad to see a familiar face coming
He wanted to help
I was so happy
But suddenly...
somebody was also coming
a woman, she hold him so tight
she didn't let him help me
even when I was drowning so far
doushite no... atashi?

kanojo wa... dare desu ka?


It was a nightmare. I woke up in sudden. I just realized that my stomach was all hurt. I couldn't take it anymore. I cried, alone on my bed. The night was so quite, and I kept crying. The pain was still there, until I fell asleep after crying for... well, I don't remember how long.

It happened again, the same dream, the same scene, the same feeling. Anata wa atashi no tomodachi desu, demo doushite?


Then the dream went to another scene. My family, it was like a long journey. Exhausted, that was all I felt. I woke up many times, thinking... doushite?
until the morning came, the same question is still running in my mind.

I start to remember many things. Memory,,, I treasure it well. So glad to have many friends... so glad to have a lot of nice memories with them.
with a little regret, I whisper to my self...
after a very long time, why now?

Despite of consciousness, I feel hurt. Wakarimasen.

I think I will just cancel my trip plan to Japan.

gEEze >_<