Tuesday 14 April 2009

Seize the day

There was a little girl, living in a really happy world. She was taught how to live the life to the fullest. Clearly shown to her, a good girl should be strong, brave, never afraid of anything. A good girl is always happy and showing happiness. She knows how to have her act together, hides her sadness and never shows any trace of sorrow. A good girl should smile a lot, a perfect one. Always cheerful and know how to embrace the environment. A good girl never holds grudges, always forgives. A good girl always speaks something meaningful, always thinks before acting. A good girl knows how to spread the breeze of a peaceful life. A good girl walks her life path with grace and dignity....

Maybe, the world is not as simple as I think, as I used to live in. Maybe I am not as strong as I was taught to be. There are many times I can't bear something, that I let my tears falling down. There are a lot of emotional stories I am supposed to hide, the gloom I am supposed to suppress, yet I write them on a blog, share them with you. There are times I just can't understand something to the point that I let my self holding a piece of sadness. There are a lot of times I forget to give a perfect hi and smile. There are times when I feel so weak, to the state that I feel my heart scattered unreasonably. There is time ... I really miss the little girl of me.

Every person is forced to grow up, as the world demands it. Yet some realities get crashed with the edge of my stubborn beliefs. I get confused sometimes, to really deal with a real world. At some points, I am also afraid of many things, showering my self with a lot of doubts, weakening my own strength. I try my best to be strong, yet I lose some faith on my own hope. To just realize, sometimes I just can't stand on my own feet. It hurts my pride, for some reasons. I am always ensured to value my life, but maybe... I value my self too high. Silence might cover the vulnerable me, shaded with a nice smile. And I might act really well, as a lot of people envy my life for sure. Yet I am looking for the real meaning, to the deepest part of my soul, to find the beautiful jewel that I might forget.

I want to sharpen my heart, open my mind a lot wider, accept the truth more bravely, as the little girl was always taught: Live the life to the fullest ... with grace and dignity. I do believe, the future is always bright and better ;).

... Ready to be a mature grown up.
The wonderful world is in your hand, girl.
Get up, dress up, show up, and speak up.
Hueheheheh biggrin

*gambar diambil dari web.


Sara Paddison said...

Being vulnerable doesn't have to be threatening. Just have the courage to be sincere, open and honest. This opens the door to deeper communication all around. It creates self-empowerment and the kind of connections with others we all want in life. Speaking from the heart frees us from the secrets that burden us. These secrets are what make us sick or fearful. Speaking truth helps you get clarity on your real heart directives.
-- Sara Paddison

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